I'm sitting at the eve of a 36 hour wave of darkness, the likes of which I haven't experienced in a long time. To say the pain was immense, would be an understatement. I was immobile. I couldn't function. My brain was racing like never before and as hard as I tried to slow it … Continue reading This too shall pass
If only the walls of my room would have a voice, they would speak of the amount of tears I've shed behind closed doors. If only the voicemail on my phone would say the truth, it would say that I don't mean to ignore you, I just don't have the emotional energy to talk. If … Continue reading If only….
Another day, another disappointment. My caseworker called telling me, that I can't file a claim because I am out of the stature of limitations. It hurt. It pierced directly into my wounded soul. I didn't get an apology from him as he denied it all. I can't send him to court and I can't even … Continue reading Climbing my mountain
Sitting on the grass in my backyard while leaning back on a tree, I'm reflecting over the storm that has just hit, forcing me to pause on my journey of healing. It was perhaps the biggest storm to date. It brought in the worst darkness and the strongest winds. Winds that were so powerful that … Continue reading Please never give up!
It's Chanukah morning, the Festival of Lights. Yet I lay in bed with a horrible migraine, feeling so much darkness. This migraine is a result of a few horrible nightmares that I had last night. Although the morning sun is shining through my bedroom window, it's no match against the inner darkness that has completely … Continue reading My own personal Chanukah miracle!
It's just a few hours before sundown, which will bring in the celebration of my birthday. My children are finishing up on their posters and I can see the excitement on their pure faces. It's "Daddy's Birthday" and that means so much to them. Watching them smile with glee is breaking my heart. They are … Continue reading Birthday triumphs
There was once a family, not long ago, living in a very close knit community. This family was from the most prestigious and kindhearted in town. They were the role model for so many. They defined what it means to have a truly beautiful and harmonious home. The parents had that awesome blend of self … Continue reading Our special gift…