I was standing in that room, getting that X-ray. It was an innocent X-ray, yet something about it, triggered me very strongly. It triggered extreme pain in my entire being. It caused me to have a mini panic attack and I began to feel weak and shaky, yet somehow I was able to get through … Continue reading Peaks and valleys
It happened yet again, suddenly, without any warning. I was innocently going through some pictures on an old memory card. My finger was on the forward key, while the pictures to were sliding by one after the next. When suddenly my finger froze. Staring right at me were pictures I've taken during some of the … Continue reading A fiery victory!
I'm standing at the end of the most brutal week of my life. Looking back, I still can't believe I made it through. What started off as an innocent trigger, set off an explosion of many memories that were hidden deep inside my soul. They all emerged with a ferocious energy, knocking me down harder … Continue reading Keep fighting
I'm sitting outside on my recliner, trying to fill my body with the fresh and crisp midnight air. It's been a brutal week for me, with countless challenges, nightmares and triggers. I'm tired physically and emotionally and I'm desperately trying to rejuvenate myself with the peaceful quiet. All is silent, aside from the crickets between … Continue reading Our hidden light.
I'd like to share with you all, a painful yet extremely powerful morning I just experienced. I woke up early this morning after a horrifically painful night. I was heavily triggered from something and was therefore awake most of the night. I was twisting and turning trying desperately to rid the image of my sexual … Continue reading Keep fighting
Dear readers, I'm taking the risk of sharing this post. I know I may get flack for it. For those of you that are in the same boat as myself, you will understand my pain. As for the rest, I'm humbly offering my blessing that you should never know of the pain I'm talking about. … Continue reading The silent battlefield
The news seems as though it has no mercy. It's constant bombardment of the dismal updates on this vicious disease is too much to bear. Another patient rushed to the hospital. Another victim died. Another family member or close friend is in critical condition. The texts keep coming in, screaming, to pray for yet another … Continue reading The silent victims of this virus.